Yours

 Words in my head

And they won’t go

Spinning

Pounding

Stuck.

Trapped in my own brain

Your words

Invade what is mine

Steal what is not yours

To take.

Words leave your mouth

Crippled.

Wrong.

Hover in the air

Broken.

Weird.

Settle in my head

Slow

Weak

Blink back tears

Your words

Darkness

Evil

Thunder in my ears

Push me down

When I’m on the ground.

Everything in me

wants to prove you wrong

But how can I

When your words are so strong

Your words

Taking what’s mine

Do I have to be on guard

All of the time?

Destroying

what control I have

Over my mind

Your cruel

Evil

Vicious words

Stuck in my head

Over and over again

Why can’t you realize

How cruel your words are?

Can you please

Be quiet

If you have nothing good to say at all.

The pain’s still inside me

But all I want

is to let go

Let me let go

Of your words.

I want the words you gave

to go away

Hurt 

Scared

I want the confidence you stole

Tell me…

Is it gone

Forever?

Locked

Inside my head

The pain 

Your words

Grief

 Heard you were gone

Didn’t quite believe it.

Until

A hole

a gaping space

Filled with emptiness

Opened 

Inside of me.

Then I was

blind, blurry

Lost

Wet, salty tears

Clouded like the ocean…

That you’d never see again.

I miss your smile

I miss your laugh

The way you held me 

Like I was all you had.

Made me feel precious.

Like a piece of glass

Glass

shatters

Breaks into

A million pieces

Like my heart when I realized

You were gone.

My heart

You held a piece of it from the start

And now you’re gone

Gone

I remember

Holding your hand

A connection

So few understand

Your hand

Delicate

gentle

Loving 

Laughing

I didn’t want to slip out of your grasp

You slipped out of my grasp

Didn’t want to let go

Don’t want to let go

Please don’t let go…

Don’t leave me

Stay.

Don’t want to let go…

Not of your smile

Not of your laugh

Not of the memories

in the photographs

Not of your love

You filled a room

Just the bright look in your eyes

Wanted to be near you

All the time

I want to be with you

But you’re in paradise

And now you’re gone

What am I supposed to do

Now that you’re gone?

You hold my hand

Through the threshold of life

You hold 

A piece of my heart

Always

Enjoy paradise as you did life.

Always.

I’ll miss you tons

But this isn’t goodbye

‘Cause I’ll hold your hand 

Through the obstacles in life

Always.

Now is it okay

To cry?

Now those tears

Spill from my eyes

Hold them in, let them out

Pretend they are falling 

from the sky

From Heaven

Where you are

Where we’ll be

Together

One day. 

Someday.

Perseverance of love

Let me cry

I’m grieving

Though you’re in paradise

Always.

I’ll love you

Always

Words for the World

We had to do a free-verse poem in school inspired by Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s “I Have a Dream” speech. Here is mine:

My dream today

Whirls through my head

Lives rent-free

In my mind

Words

Light, soft

Pleasant.

Words

Dark. Thunderous. Cruel.

Can bring tears

Can bring smiles

My dream is

For words

To escape.

To bring levity

Or gravity 

Into the world.

Words

can be just what people need.

Words

Can rip, can pull someone apart

Words

Can put the pieces back together. 

My dream

is for the positivity

of words

For the world.

For people to

Use care with their words.